*sighs* Life definitely hasn't been good this past few weeks. Despite the ending of the Common Test just 2 weeks ago, teachers are already dishing out tons of work waiting to be completed.
There was barely anytime for a break. We were rushing through work so busily we barely could breathe.
Or it was me, at least.
For these two weeks I have been staying back on Thursday and waiting for those people to finish playing their DM cards and then walking me home, or waiting for them to actually notice my existence. But apparently I've just wasted 2 hours of my short life waiting for them and getting no special rewards. *sighs* Maybe I'm just obnoxious. *goes into depression*
Oh yes, Kailong's birthday is coming real soon, but I don't know it Qunjie is going to get him anything. He's trying to buy him a deck, but then I don't think Kailong would like it.
*wanders like a missing soul* Nowhere's appropriate for me. I'm rejected by wherever I visit. Then I'm stuck to this place where people I really don't wish to have talking to me talk to me. It's a nuisance. I'll go crazy very very soon.
The camp is next Monday. But the lethargic me right now has nothing to look forward to. Maybe it's just now. I hope it's only for now.
I've just came across this interesting quote in March's Readers' Digest. It went like that: "The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. At least when you hate someone, you still care for him."
Of course I wouldn't want to be hated, but I think no one cares about me. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so terrible? I don't understand myself. I can't understand others. No idea why I'm feeling so emotional over some people whom I thought was stupid. Conscience? I just don't know.
Loads of homework had already been dished out for us for the short 1 week holidays. We have loads of Geography homework, some totally stupid Amaths homework and such. I'm really gonna die one of these days. But well, dying doesn't really make much difference. Since no one actually noticed my existence, I don't think my death would cause too much trouble for anyone.
If I could either just get happier by having people notice me, or I could just go away peacefully while sleeping.
Then maybe I would meet ZARD in the heavens. Or maybe I won't go to heavens.
Never mind that. Being a little pessimistic right now. I shall go complete my craziest work now. Good Day.
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